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You're a Part of My Book

I am a writer, a writer of my book, of my life.

My existence in this world is not an accident

but an opportunity given by HIM.

 

And here I thought it is the same for you.

Your existence was never an accident.

This is destiny.

 

Meeting someone like you is not an accident

it's by fate or by destiny.

But I know You're already in my book.

 

My book still has a lot of blank pages in it.

You filled a few of it.

Memories I can't sell I can't lose

 

You wrote treasures in my book

I keep it in me knowing that I could protect it.

Yes, You made those pages meaningful

 

Time passed and we get separated.

Maybe its by fate or destiny

It's not an accident.

 

Distance is what makes us away.

But you know? You're still near me

You're still in my book. But I'm the one writing in your pages now.

 

I recall our memories.

We are still connected.

We are still friends.

 

I write the tiny memories I can gather

I try not finish writing coz I know there will be next time

coz I know we will still look forwrd to seeing each  other.

 

You're a part of my Book

you're a part of my self

and it's not an accident

 

-ketz12

 

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A Dream That Made Me Forget For Hrs

    Today  I know i should not be feeling so down and pessismistic. This should not be my attitude and stuff. It's not  going to help me recover. I decided to sleep

    I dreamed about me and my friend Preschelle we were walking on the same path whenever we go to the mall... we were talking about something (i forgot) we were laughing the usual...

 something happened it went black...

    And now I am staring at a crowd... feeling nervous.. holding my old guitar... then i stared at my right. I saw Kaiser, he is holding his guitar too... I was staring at him worried, He said "Kaya yan." (the usual thing he do when I look at him). I'm still worried and biting my thumb. Kaiser offered is hand... (somehow i grip on to something when im stressed) and hold tight on to it...

    It started already the crowds were shouting for Kaiser... And there i realized I am going to play with Kaiser... Nervous so nervous... then I saw jannie.. cheering up with me holding my camera presch's camera too. well presch & sunshine was there cheering us up.. (I know that they're shouting for something i just can't remember)... and the shouting stopped and Kaiser started to sing what he composed (if i am not mistaken) then everything turned black again.    I am talking to Kaiser... and got shocked when he asked "Magplay tau ulit next time!" I said yes and everything turned back to reality... I WOKE up...(something happened before i woke up I can't remember All i know im staring at my guitar before that.. O.O)

 

    It felt like a long dream but i can't remember everything there's more but my memory doesn't respond...

     In reality I really am not good at playing a guitar. But you know in this short dream i relieved a bit of my stress and it made me happy to know that someone is cheering me up even in my dreams. I know im not strong but somehow you my friends that i cherish enough are one of the reasons to keep going to what  I have started.

"Friendship is more than an object" -- Ventus

Eco Trail & Trips

My day started so dull. Yes it is dull.

so then here I thought of texting Jannie for the sake

of having company and also to kill time.

He replied having the same condition as mine. I agreed when he said that

we should go to the eco trail and have a walk :)

We met at a mall and bought some foods coz he said

it might take awhile to walk through it :)

 

so then it all started when we reached this place

this is just the road to the entrance of the eco trail :)

here we reached the start of the trail..

 

this a picture of me inside the trail already... (i cut it short... im kinda lazy already xD)

after this part... i got shocked..

 

Yes this is a hanging bridge!! err :) im so scared  when i saw this one but also amazed :)

its cool though!

and so we took a picture with it :)

This is jannie :P

and of course me! :) ehhe

believe me the bridge is shaking like hell when we went pass through it :)

 

photos :)

this one is taken by jannie ;) its near the end of the trail.. xD

I swear the trail is long next time ill go back and featyre everything i see

haha this a shortcut of the shortcut of the journey

so this one is the end of the trail :) hahah! these were taken by jannie

I bet he's having fun with my masaki chan (camera)

 

This one.. I took this one :) hahah the color is so cool :)

this is the last flower we saw before we go to the mall :) to wrap up our journey :)

 

so we sang at the karaoke bar :)

 

and we became SPIES!!! (jannie said he looks like a spy xD)

 

thats the end of the lil journey :)

that day made me so happy :) everything so complete :)

everything is so perfect..

 

(additional happiness)

I like it when K - chan scolded me to go to sleep.. coz this proved

he cares for me :) what could be more better right?

Knowing a person cares for you even if you have only

days that you met each other :)

 

so thats the end of it everyone!!!!!

The Night...

The day ended and the night comes.

I was unexpectedly tired and nervous.

I wasn't at the right pace to begin with.

I wasn't at the right time to think specifically for something

however, I have one thing in mind.

that's to keep this friendship alive.

This wasn't me really, This wasn't my first thing to think about this really...

I am down, keeping my self busy.

I am pretending like i didn't know somebody.

but the truth is i don't want to let go...

This was never the first...

Thinking about it thoroughly I never came up to an answer.

I never came up with the right thing to do...

I am so afraid to commit the same mistake...

however, i don't want to let go....

How could such thing happen again...

I care, I believed and stayed the real me.

Im alone... I'm damned thats it... now i don't know

now i don't see it.. if i am at the right time... or the right thing...

He's Gone...

He is a guy who has a long hair that has a length that ranges to shaft of his neck

He has an almond shaped eyes and a beautiful smile.

light brown colored guy with a height of 5.5".

Somehow people tend to get irritated and disturbed by him.

He is sweet and caring but people misjudge him.

He have friends, yes, but he doesn't know who are the fake and the truth.

He tried to keep in tact. keep in pace and to keep in touch with others

but he just feels he doesn't belong.

Time passed y so fast and then he realized that he DOES have a friend

a friend he could lean on. he could rely on and believe on.  he never knew

that he already forgotten about that person...

but that was his biggest mistake... because when realized about that person

he just noticed that the friendship faded away,

like a sand being pulled by the splash of waves. leaves being blown by the strong wind.

he lost a friend. he lost a part of him.

That's All I Know

Are you going to stay with me when I say “I want you to be here?”

Will you let me know if I can wait for you and say “Welcome back home”.

The moments that I tried to think and remember everything about you

My tears keep on  coming out.

I shouted my feelings. I never had answer from you

But I am sure that my feelings will be the same,

 

Everything comes unexpected. The day that I met you, the day that I knew the true you

And the day that I loved you.  Those are unexpected…

I know I am still not capable of proving how much I love you

But I know my feelings are true.

 

This is not a joke, this is not a game.

I love you and that’s all I know.

 

-ketz12

I Can't Reach Your Heart

I Can’t Reach Your Heart~

When you came into my life. You made me confused.

“What do I do?” that’s always my line whenever I see you looking at me

Then one day you sat by my side.  I knew you came at the right time because I

Feel the loneliness in my heart. You comforted me and made me life.

We became friends… close friends.

I was so happy I got close to you. So happy that I don’t notice the time when I’m with you

That was when I see you as a friend…

Now I am feeling this pain without you noticing

I can’t tell you because I know you don’t have to. Being close to you proves it

You said it in front of me because we’re talking about people

That you can’t have one yet and you can’t love a friend..

When I heard that I decided to be one of your most important friend.

One of the people you’ll entrust with everything you want to share

That’s me now and I’m Happy but I feel pain less than ever

I knew this day would come…

I already knew that somehow I Can’t Reach Your Heart..

Happy Without Me!

There are things that sometimes you need to realize in your own perception

This includes the situation and the understanding of thoughts by your companions.

We should really be observant…

 

These days I feel so down that deep inside of me, I actually try to scream all that I wanted to say…

I wanted to tell how much I miss a person. I wanted an appreciation of being a friend…

“Happy without Me” is what I can say. Yes, It’s true that I don’t have the right to be like this

I am being selfish… but hey~! It hurts a lot to see that person in a distance smiling, laughing

And most probably enjoying the day.  Well, I know that I don’t have the right to stop it.

Who am I anyways? Right? But, I really wanted to feel how concern that person is…

 

Days had passed and I am still hoping for it. Then there I made a move,  and yes that person

Accepted it.  I did it for a reason, first I’m a friend and second is that I wanted to know if my long

Coldness can be felt by that person… And yet, I never had any reactions… and yes I FAILED.

 

Going through these situations makes me lose my self. I wanted to tell everything to that person

But I can’t for a very simple reason that I am afraid that this effort is going to nothing…

I wanted that person to feel how I miss everything…  but I can’t.

This foolishness of mine is going to nothing, I wanted to shout and say.

“Do You Even Care!? “ but I can’t… I miss you that’s all I wanted you to know

But to tell it to you directly I think I can’t…. because…

I know that person is “Happy Without Me”…

 

“My Existence has never been recognized, I guess”